It Is Well
It's 2019. Once upon a time, it was 2005. What do these two years have in common? Calorie-free decadent chocolate torte with rich vanilla bean ice cream? Free manis and pedis for all? It doesn't hurt to dream a little. Instead, these two amazing years of God's faithfulness encapsulate the common theme of.....cancer.
Last week I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I know, right? I mean, one would think that losing a spouse to terminal cancer with two littles still in diapers would ensure a "Get Out of Cancer Free" card for the rest of this human life. But as I learned many moons ago, God never promises us a comfortable life. He wants our hearts, our trust, our everything. And His promises are true and He is faithful. Always.
I'm facing my biggest fear for the first time in 14 years. Since Brian's homecoming, any time I have faced a medical related issue, my blood pressure elevated, my body exploded in hives, and my stomach performed endless back flips. I have been fairly good at hiding this said fear in the back of a deep closet within my heart. I have prayed since Brian died that nothing would happen to me until the boys were well into adulthood. In His faithfulness, He answered my prayers by holding me close and whispering in my ear, "My plan is best."
God is in every corner of this next part of life's journey. I have experienced His perfect peace in my heart, His perfect plan in the details, and His perfect love with my family. Whatever comes our way is part of an amazing redemption story, an intricate plan woven with grace and beauty and mercy. He will equip us and grow us to be more that we once were.
Yes, it is most certainly well with my soul.
Last week I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I know, right? I mean, one would think that losing a spouse to terminal cancer with two littles still in diapers would ensure a "Get Out of Cancer Free" card for the rest of this human life. But as I learned many moons ago, God never promises us a comfortable life. He wants our hearts, our trust, our everything. And His promises are true and He is faithful. Always.
I'm facing my biggest fear for the first time in 14 years. Since Brian's homecoming, any time I have faced a medical related issue, my blood pressure elevated, my body exploded in hives, and my stomach performed endless back flips. I have been fairly good at hiding this said fear in the back of a deep closet within my heart. I have prayed since Brian died that nothing would happen to me until the boys were well into adulthood. In His faithfulness, He answered my prayers by holding me close and whispering in my ear, "My plan is best."
God is in every corner of this next part of life's journey. I have experienced His perfect peace in my heart, His perfect plan in the details, and His perfect love with my family. Whatever comes our way is part of an amazing redemption story, an intricate plan woven with grace and beauty and mercy. He will equip us and grow us to be more that we once were.
Yes, it is most certainly well with my soul.
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